Parenting – what does this mean for me? What are the
parenting challenges I am facing at the moment?
Deb ( http://www.homelifesimplified.com.au/ ) this couldn’t come at a
better time.
So what are my challenges – this is going to take a little
bit of explaining and I know you will forgive me as I work my way through this.
In it’s simplest terms for me parenting is looking after my
son and helping him to achieve everything he can whilst keeping him safe,
protected and nourishing him in all areas.
As he grows up this is easier because I have grown and am now more
confident but when he was a little tacker it wasn’t that easy.
We moved to Canberra a month before Merman was born – no family,
no friends and being pregnant not work mates for me. It was tough, I was scared and nobody but my
hubby. My mum was only a phone call away but she was many miles away.
We were older first time parents and this was good for me, I
was more settled and ready to settle down as was my hubby.
The best bit of advice my dear mum gave me was – it’s only a
weed if you think it is a weed. Basically do what you think is right and what
works for you not what others think or do.
LOML and I have done this and it works for us….. Don’t get
me wrong, we made mistakes and still do.
Nobody is perfect but I am confident that I do the best I can and that
if I do make a mistake I get over it and move on. I am never too proud to say
sorry or to change a decision, rule or punishment.
I’ve been attending a workshop on Lousie Hay’s Heal your
life and it is such an eye opener. Louise
says “we all do the best we can”, that we are all victims and that nobody hurts
another one on purpose.
I’ve have learned so much and I know I made mistakes but I
am trying to fix them. I wish I hadn’t
yelled so much at Merman, I wish I had played more games with him, I wish we
had done more outside things. This isn’t
to say we didn’t do these things but I wish I had done more. I wish I hadn’t
put others first – like work. I did the best I could.
Each and every one of us grows – both in ourselves and our
parenting. This is as it should be. I am happy with our relationship and as any
parent of a 16 year old (going on 30) will tell you some days are tough. Hang on a minute – lets be honest here. Merman is a great kid, we haven’t had any
trouble with him. There have been some
issues at school – bullying etc but there hasn’t been any major issues. No Drinking, Drugs, Bad behaviour just a
young man doing the best he can.
Yes we were tough on him with manners and doing the right
thing but now he is developing into his own man and a man I am proud of in so
many ways. I just wish he would study
more, he gets good grades at school but he could do better with more
study. I can only show him, tell him and
ask him to do it. I will not nag.
All is good and I am pleased with our relationship – Merman has
a wonderful heart and displays it often.
I am very proud of him and love him to bits.
Challenges yes there are some and will be more but with love,
understanding, respect and mutual goals we can achieve anything and everything.
There is something else I’d like to mention on this topic
and its something I have been struggling to deal with…….
As you all know my sister passed away recently and even
though Dad is in aged care, Mally was the main carer for him – she visited each
week and did all the little things for him.
Dad is on the Gold Coast and I am in Canberra and my other sister is in
Adelaide. All of a sudden we are the joint
carers for our father.
A new world for all of us……..
Dad is 86 with only 20% vision and onset of dementia. Oh yeah I am 14 hours drive away and my
sister is 25 hours drive away. I am
learning – it is hard but I am learning.
It is just like having a toddler again. His memory is going, he is
getting paranoid, he wants attention all the time and he is so very negative –
everyone is out to get him (even the lady calling bingo in the home). It is so
very hard – my father, the tough strong man that I was always a bit fearful of
now is relying on me. I am learning new skills and ways of dealing with
dad. Its not easy – I think the hardest thing
for me is to understand that others can help too, that I don’t have to do it
all. Dad can still do some things for
himself and there are others who want to help. There are also services
available to help too.
As mentioned before for me parenting is looking after my son
and helping him to achieve everything he can whilst keeping him safe, protected
and nourishing him in all areas so it is for looking after my dad.
Parenting comes in all shapes and sizes, the thing to
remember is that you are doing the best you can. Be kind to yourself, you will
make mistakes – learn from them and that is the best lesson you can teach your
child.
I’ve been moving in a
new direction in my life – for many reasons that I’ve mentioned in previous
posts. I am more positive, I strongly believe that beliefs are very important –
the way we think about ourselves shapes us. What belief we give others is so
very important – actually it is the greatest gift you can give your child or
anybody around you. It is also important to dissolve any belief that doesn’t
serve you well.
My Challenge is to continue to create beliefs for my son
that will see him achieve in his life but more importantly to dissolve any
harmful beliefs. A challenge I am feel very confident in achieving.