52 Week Challenge - Week 20

Moving forward

Wow 20 weeks already.

I’m taking Deb’s (http://www.homelifesimplified.com.au/achieving-goals/) advice and had a look back at my goals and found out something very interesting. I’ve made excellent progress in some areas actually in some areas I couldn’t be happier with my progress but (yes there is always a but isn’t there). I’ve been procrastinating with the two major goals on my list. I keep making plans, setting goals, creating vision boards and talking the talk but I’m not getting anywhere.  I need to put the plans in action.  I need to walk the walk.

My weight is the issue, I start all these things to help me reduce weight but when they start to work.  I get side tracked, or just stop doing what I should.  I stop walking the walk and go back to just talking about it and finding every possible excuse not to keep to the plan.

I had to break the cycle.  I had to shake things up and really look at what was going on.  I had to have a honest talk with myself and find out what is really going on.  So looking back to move forward I have been thinking about why I sabotage myself. There is something that keeps blocking my ability to stick to my weight reduction regime.

I’ve decided I need to find out what it is, so I had my first Theta healing session and all I can say is wow.  Although we didn’t talk about the weight issues at any great length I think I have found out the reason but more importantly I know how to change the self belief that has kept me off track.
Its got to do with being a large baby and thinking that the only way I will be loved is to be a big baby, all the stories I have been told about my baby years have to do with large baby issues:

                Trip home from hospital being handed to my sisters because I was the size of a 3 month old baby. So cute because I was a big baby. Getting stuck under the radiogram and the list goes on.

Only getting attention because I was big. This is very interesting.  Can’t wait until my next Theta session and we get to the bottom of this.

On another note, this week has been very interesting at work.  I’ve been making a few changes especially about the way I make decisions and for me it is going really well.  I am feeling really good about things especially the way I stand up for my decisions and I just don’t go along with others.  Funny thing though I was told that people thought I was “testy”. I suppose its better than saying I was bitchy.

It’s a funny thing when you change sometimes people don’t like it. Is it because my changes are taking them out of their comfort zone? Is it because they don’t like change? Is it because they are jealous?

Truth is I don’t care, I am happy and I totally approve of my changes. I feel so much better and less stressed.

My life is simpler.

Living a simpler life